Love Lost

I saw a recent post on how love can be forgotten. It was said, knowing a person better can lead towards losing love. Losing love... Hmm... Losing love. How do you lose love? How does it fade away? Can you ever un-love a person?

I haven't felt the thrill of finding love for years now. Being in love and finding it are two complete separate things, to be honest. When you find love, there is this thrill of uncertainty. There is this fear of no reciprocation. Sometimes finding love is more glorious, because you fall in love, knowing there will be no reciprocation, no fulfillment. It is a hard game to play. 

More difficult, to me, is probably approaching the person for whom you are susceptible to fall for. There is this constant hammer of insecurity hitting the anvil mad of grey matter, telling you not to message, not to call. What if the person finds you to be a nuisance? A clingy, needy, desperate person in need of attention. The love will, of course go unnoticed, because you do not have a chance to show that you care. Worse, if you have never met, but only conversed over phone, Whatsapp, Messenger, whatever.

Who loses out because of this hesitation? Love does. You do. And if you are genuine enough, then the person you are gradually falling for loses. But... But... How do you know it is love? Not a phase, not an infatuation, a "crush"? Is it when the very serious you ends up blushing uncontrollably? Or is it then, when the womanizer in you cannot utter a single, witty word that was once your proud pick up line? Or is when you just smile reading her words on your mobile phone screen or your computer screen. Is it when the cursor blinks? That is up to you to decide.

Susceptibility is not a sin. Giving love a chance is not a weakness. Love, perhaps is one of the strongest forces out there. Care, for people. Be proud of yourself for being able to fall for somebody. Love. Care. I had a replenishment of these facts and sentiments at a very recent screening of a movie called Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them. 

Having said all this, I, myself must brush my insecurities off and embrace the fall.